Its just hard to believe that Im almost done with semester 1 and hopefully after 3 years I would be saying its just hard to believe Im almost done with my degree. LOL! Well reminiscing when I first step into HELP having all these worries and doubts that I will ever make it through after what all the lecturers said to us about the course. Furthermore I used to complain about the class being too quiet with everyone minding their own business...well now its like a night market everyday in class even when there's a lecturer inside but hey I kinda like it.

The lecturers - well I would say I enjoy accounts and stats class as there's no pressure during lectures yet but I dread maths class eventhough the lecturer is very experience but he can be very sarcastic at times which makes you feel stupid. But then again he's kinda funny or maybe more of a joker without realising it himself. Thats the funny part. The worst class is econs partly because of the lecturer and also because I hate that subject. Sadly to say the lecturer can't teach at all despite the fact that she is a fresh graduate and a top student. I'm wondering if her degree was obtained through complete memorisation of books. I hope I'm wrong. She also lacks the confidence in her own teaching. On the first day of class she taught with the book covering her mouth and like how are we possibly going to hear her if she does that. Fortunately she's much better now although we still can't understand a single thing she's teaching. Here I am now condemning my own lecturer's teaching when I'm planning to be one in the future. Hopefully by that time I will have enough confidence when I'm facing my own students. After all there's always a first time to everything.

I've made alot of new friends too although I don't know everyone in my class yet but there's this one thing that I would definitely agreed with is that people who are chinese educated or prefers to speak mandarin are somehow friendlier as compared to those english educated. Actually I've long confirmed this when I went for my NS training and it all seems clearer now. It's not that I'm condemning the english educated here but it somehow seems easier to mingle around those chinese educated people given that I am english educated. I feel that they treat me sincerely as compared to the english educated who seems like they are trying to challenge me or somewhat look down on me if I'm not up to their standard. Seriously doesn't mean that if you are english educated you are way better than alot of people because in the end you will still lose out when it comes to speaking or writing in mandarin unless you are good at both but it still doesn't mean you can show off. No offense here as it is all based on my own opinion.

For me I am always willing to improve both my english and mandarin if given the chance and i am very lucky to have made a few friends who taught me mandarin during NS and now in college as well. It seems like I'm speaking mandarin very often nowadays especially in college and I eventually speak mandarin without realising it but I'm definitely not becoming a lala as how my sister puts it.

And now that sem 1 is going to end I may not be seeing some of my friends in maths and stats class due to our different majors. I'm definitely gonna miss their company.

LOVE

God's love
A friend of mine shared this article with me and so I would like to share it with you guys. God's love is said to be agape, unconditional love. What does it mean by that?
Well the Bible says that Jesus laid His life down for you while you were yet a sinner (Rom 5:8). He had no guarantee that you were going to respond. For this reason, agape is the most beautiful love in the world. If you have a reason for love, the reason has to be maintained in order for love to remain. That expectation is too much pressure. If God had said, “I love you because you are holy,” that pressure would be too great for us. God never does that. He simply says that He loves us. This is the beauty of agape. It has no reason or condition.According to Jesus Christ, you cannot love anyone beyond your love for yourself. You can only love me to the same degree that you love yourself. Therefore, it is more important for you to love you than to love me. When you love you, I am safe. Whatever you hate about you, you hate about everybody else because you cannot love beyond your love for yourself. When you love yourself, you do not need someone to approve you to feel important. You understand your self-worth.

Actually I kinda agree because we must learn to love ourselves first before we can really learn to love others.

Thanks Hui Ling for sharing the article with me. I think Im gonna love myself even more now. :)

Family Love

Well I do not need to say much about this because as we all know a family can never stay together without love. Which parent do not love their children? However the one problem most asian family face is they do not know how to express their love for each other or often it is express in the wrong way. If one day I would to go and tell my mum or dad I love you, they will definitely fall off their chair if they are sitting or choked on their meal if they are eating. Its true! But that does not mean we all don't love our family right. Sometimes I do have thoughts that maybe what all my parents are doing now for me is just so that they may enjoy a better old age life when it is our time to pay back our 'debts'. We are like an investment. Are all this just out of responsibility or love or both? Im not complaining about having to take care of my parents in the future because its after all my duty. Then again parents are willing to sacrifice their life for their kids if they have to so isn't this done out of love? Anyway all this will only come to my understanding when I've become a mother myself I guess.

Couple Love

I've never dated anyone yet so I wouldn't dare say I know how does it feel to be in love. But I did had small crushes here and there and I would say its like a roller coaster ride. The excitement is of course there but then there is the fear of your crush finding out. Not forgetting the times when I was willing to go that extra mile just to get that person's attention and the silly things I would be willing to do because of him. Somehow everything about him is perfect. But then if you ask me if I were to die for him, I would definitely say no way! Not to that extreme of course. There is also this scary part in which I've witnessed love turning into hatred and disappointment. Therefore the human's mind and heart is really unpredictable.

Friends Love

It is very common nowadays to see girls saying i love you to each other. I do say it occasionally to friends on their birthdays but what kind of love is that actually. Sometimes I wonder at this pont of time you say love you but the next minute if a misunderstanding occur, the friendship may just end. Its that fragile. Not to mention back-stabbing does occur no matter how close you are but does that make us girls evil? I don't think so. We are just being more sensitive and observant towards our surrounding.

I wonder...

Just three days ago, I've become a HELP student. Somehow the feeling that HELP gives me is totally different from MCKL. Maybe its because I'm used to being in a well discipline, innocent and nerdy environment where everyone's concern is just on studies studies studies. I was kinda shocked to find my HELP classmates smoking. This shows how naive I am but I'm NOT a nerd. I know life down this road won't be an easy one as the programme I'm in is a tough one but I'm determine to do my very best, hopefully. Futhermore I'm doing a course which is beyond my expectations. I can still remember how I always said I would never want to go into accounting or anything to do with business but it seems I'm heading towards it now.

I really really hope I made the right choice because in the end I have no one to blame but myself for my own foolishness, for not daring to follow my passion ( Do I even have a passion?), for being undecisive, for worrying too much and most of all for letting myself being influence so badly. Relatives and friends are all saying I made the right choice but only God knows and if it is His will to put me in this situation then there's nothing that I can do but to follow.

Honestly I'm missing those days in MCKL. HELP tend to emphasize more on studying, getting good grades, making the college proud. No ragging by seniors instead they give you that stare, no community service, no camps, even orientation was only half a day. Lecture classes are so quiet, everyone minding their own business. I hate this kind of environment!

I guess I'm just used to MCKL's warm and friendly environment. Maybe things will change in no time. After all I'm gonna be there for 3 years.

So, Sook Ann, GAMBATEH!!! :)

Adios A-level

FINALLY!!!

It's back to rotting in the house days now that I'm done with my A-levels for good. After over two months without blogging, I finally had the time to actually sit in front of the comp thinking of what to say here. hhmm... Thinking back when I first step into MCKL, I had this feeling I might not like it here as the place was kinda rundown or maybe more of like a school to me. But I was wrong. Im definitely gonna miss the times I had over there- the friendly lecturers, the malay guard who is always greeting me when I enter the gate, the librarian and her sshhhss...., the office staffs and most of all my crazy bunch of friends.

Not forgetting CF times when I always try to enter half an hour later just to avoid having to join in the games. haizz those were the days. I will also never forget all the embarrasing moments I had there which will not be mention over here. In my opinion MCKL is a place for those who are really determine to get good grades( that's what makes the competition here so great) and not just showing off their money, beauty or whatsoever. It's a place where you might be able to make a few really true friends who like you because of who you really are. YUP! thats MCKL to me.

And now that I'm done with A-levels, here are a few things I plan to do for the two months break:

• Deciding on what degree course to take as well as searching for Uni (Right! I'm still undecisive about this matter. GREAT!)
• Going to Singapore to visit my nephew
• Taking over my sister's job ( my first working experience)
• Following my sis to her church
• Meeting up with school friends ( I doubt cause they are all so busy)
• Constantly updating my blog ( hopefully I manage to come up with stuff to post about)
• Facebooking
• Downloading some dramas to watch
• Learn typing
• Entertaining my cousins when they are here next month

So I guess that rounds up my plans for the month of July and August.

My two darlings

Instead of leaving the month of March postless, I've decided to write about my two doggies, Bobo and Cha Cha. When both my previous dogs Spotty and Lucky died one after another, I was really very sad. I especially adore Lucky as he's very obedient and always comes when I clapped my hands. I miss Lucky so muchhh...

My dearest Lucky. You will always be remembered

And now for the two naughty ones...

Bobo (the lazy one)

Cha Cha (the energetic one)

This was when they were only 2 months old

The one fast asleep on the left is of course Bobo and the right one is Cha Cha.

Now they are around 6 months old, I think.

'Update of the Year'

I used to dislike Korean dramas.

I used to say korean actors are so sissy, that people might mistaken them for girls.

Korean dramas always put me to sleep.

As long as it's korean don't even bother telling me. If the day ever comes where I would actually go crazy over korean dramas, pigs must be in the air.

BUT NOW....

-I'm listening to korean songs 24/7

- I'm actually watching this korean drama called Boys over Flowers

- and Kim Bum is soooooo cute....

Thanks to my younger sister. Now I'm a korean addict. WTH! But the drama is actually not that bad and the guys are not that sissy. It's about an average girl whose family owns a dry cleaning store located near the well known Shinwa high school. She then meets the four richest and most spoiled boys known as F4 in the school and was forced to declare war on the leader of the F4.

F4

And my favourite...

KIM BUM

I'm Back!

Actually I was back on the 1st of january but...

First of all I would like to explain my long absence and that's why this blog was dead for two months.

December - In USA

January - Having exams

Well now it's kinda Merdeka for me until May where I will have another major exam. Forget bout the exams, here is something bout my USA holiday.

The weather- fantastic, no mosquitoes, and the best part is I never sweat at all during my whole
stay there. BUT I didin't get to play with snow. The day I was back in M'sia my uncle's place snowed. WTH!

The food- I miss the alfredo pasta, hashbrown, and all the CHEESSSSEEEEE...

Water there is free and if I'm not mistaken we have to pay at least RM0.80 for a glass of water in M'sia.

USD$10 pizza

Pork chop

Chicken strips and fries

Chicken fried steak with mash potatoes and broccoli rice casserole

Not to forget I also visited the largest Disneyland in Orlando, Florida. Four theme parks in 6 days and we still did not manage to went on all the rides.

I would like to introduce this special ride which is located in Hollywood Studio. It was actually the worst ride for me partly because my cousins scared me a little before we went on the ride.

Just imagine taking a lift to the 13th floor and then it stops. All of a sudden the lift just drop and I meant free fall. How cool is that? I nearly screamed my lungs out.