I wonder...

Just three days ago, I've become a HELP student. Somehow the feeling that HELP gives me is totally different from MCKL. Maybe its because I'm used to being in a well discipline, innocent and nerdy environment where everyone's concern is just on studies studies studies. I was kinda shocked to find my HELP classmates smoking. This shows how naive I am but I'm NOT a nerd. I know life down this road won't be an easy one as the programme I'm in is a tough one but I'm determine to do my very best, hopefully. Futhermore I'm doing a course which is beyond my expectations. I can still remember how I always said I would never want to go into accounting or anything to do with business but it seems I'm heading towards it now.

I really really hope I made the right choice because in the end I have no one to blame but myself for my own foolishness, for not daring to follow my passion ( Do I even have a passion?), for being undecisive, for worrying too much and most of all for letting myself being influence so badly. Relatives and friends are all saying I made the right choice but only God knows and if it is His will to put me in this situation then there's nothing that I can do but to follow.

Honestly I'm missing those days in MCKL. HELP tend to emphasize more on studying, getting good grades, making the college proud. No ragging by seniors instead they give you that stare, no community service, no camps, even orientation was only half a day. Lecture classes are so quiet, everyone minding their own business. I hate this kind of environment!

I guess I'm just used to MCKL's warm and friendly environment. Maybe things will change in no time. After all I'm gonna be there for 3 years.

So, Sook Ann, GAMBATEH!!! :)